what if...?

In the words of Mark Twain: "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

These words go through my mind alot lately, especially at the time of making certain decisions in the course of my life. My 30th birthday is around the corner, I can almost see it. I close my eyes and can even imagine being 30, the big 3 0. When it comes down to it I never in my wildest dreams imagined my life to be the way it is now - not that I am complaining or ungrateful for everything in my life - or wish it was a whole lot different. I ask myself if I have taken enough risks, if I have done enough? I suppose being the perfectionist I am the answer is NO. I havn't done enough. Is this my "perfectionist lorena" speaking or is this really how I feel?

Sounds kind of confusing to be honest, but the words of Mark Twain could not be more true in my heart, all I have done -everything- I do not regret not even a little bit because they have made me the well rounded person I am today. But things I have second guessed and let slip through my fingers, those are the things I look back at and say WHAT IF...?